I tried really hard. But it's another LONG rambling conversation in which nobody realizes when I am joking and Damian makes lame jokes and laughs at them when no one else will....... It's funny how people can be having an okay time when I am dying to get away. The conversation feels strained to me and I'm putting on an act of ''quirkily shy but dynamic nicole." I start playing with words and manipulating the conversation and purposely interrupting Damian so he'll forget what he was talking about... and even THAT stops being entertaining after a while. So I make up a lame excuse and book it, dragging Brent along with me.
See, the FRUSTRATING part is that Brent and I can have a blast of a time, just us together, but EVE hates us hanging out one-on-one. Which sucks, because there really is none of that romantic tension or anything like that. So the one person I can have fun with, I have to always be accompanied by a third person to appease l'Eve. The third person is almost always Jason or someone LIKE Jason, who drowns out Brent and I have to listen to them go on and on and on and on and on. So boring.
so this is why i SO MUCH prefer my own room. because there's no one to talk to. I long for someone I can talk to, who will get my jokes, and make me laugh a REAL laugh, smile a REAL smile.....................................................................................................
and ALWAYS always always, out of nowhere someone ALWAYS brings up
"you know that one facebook profile picture of you hugging that guy"
THAT guy will forever haunt me, apparently. i always hope and pray they are talking about the picture of me hugging a snowman I made.
me: huh? me and the snowman?
person: WTF?? noooo the guy who is WAY so happy
me: you know, almost every one of my photos has a happy person in it
person: The blond guy, the one who is smiling and looks way ****ing happy, you know?
me: oh
I mean, it's thrilling to again and again wish Cody had left his dumb camera at home, leaving no evidence the concert ever occurred. Because I am soooooo sick of explaining it really isn't your business whether or not I like/liked him. And no he wasn't my boyfriend but he could have been but he most definitely wasn't. I kind of go into an EFF YOU CODY phase whenever people like Damian or Eve bring up THAT guy.
Even though I would pretty much kill something to be able to converse with him again, because no one here compares with him.
EFF. THIS SUCKS
