well

i think trenton and brian were spying on me out of brian's apartment. i guess i can't say much, as i did spend 10 minutes one night watching brian walk around without a shirt. he is so ripped. he is fine. though i do wonder about these men. i like lars. since no one will ever read this I LIKE LARS. sigh. so many men, so little cuddling. sigh sighey sigh. i could go for some major touch. i feel like a lame loooooser ish. i like larsssssss but i think i am sending mixed messages as i call him friend but i always sit next to him and hug and stuff. i like him. DARN IT I SAID I WOULDNT LIKE ANYONE AFTER MY FIASCOES. well, not so much fiascoes as nothing attempts to get me a man.
i could go for some major popcorn. i'm starving