alas, seeing as the past few days have remained just the same as all the others, such is not the case
tragical
i shall add to my list of unattainables..
yeah just check that outanyway, i was watching television with my family [dad counts not talking and staring at a mindnumbing device.. as family time!]
and a commercial popped up with some dimwitted investigator.. "how many eight year olds would attempt suicide?" which kind of struck a chord with me because damn i've never told a soul, so i may as well tell the whole internet that although i was only 8 and never tried anything, i very much wanted to die. funny how when you're that little, it doesnt quite occur to you that you can take matters into your own hands. and i wasnt stupid enough to ask my parents a quick and easy way to off myself when i was so frickin adorable
i say that as a joke. this is a picture of me at eightoh well. i dont like to think about how i constantly want to die. if i were to mention it, some idiot boy would crack a joke BECAUSE YORE TOO UGLY TO LIVE, LOVE!
'lright
i mean, it's not like im sad ALL the time. i just get real low sometimes. it's gotten better since i was smaller. kind of. not at all
who cares?
all that matters is IM GOING TO COLLEGE!!!!!!!! i have many friends
family doesnt matter honestly. im going to try to forget all the past once i leave
that is my only hope
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