inexplicably desirable?

sadly, i have returned to this blog.
funny the problems i face in this seemingly normal world. how on earth did i go from ugly little ball of weirdness to the girl on which 3 boys have crushes? HOW? this would not be so terrible if i had any semblance of romantical feelings to either.. threither.. of them!

i mean, honestly. we are all aware that being asked on a 2nd date signifies interest. Adam AND Spence have both confessed they like me, and Jack is hopelessly obvious about it. I am confused. Adam i would expect this from. He is the NCMO who doesn't understand the non-committal part. I have this innate problem of saying 'yes' when i want to say 'NO.' Therefore I am now going on second dates with both Adam and Jack.

I'll have fun with Jack, but i know i will just be counting down the seconds till the date is over, the whole time I'm with Adam, but pretend to be happy. ugh. WHY CAN'T I BE OPENLY MEAN?

I hang out late into the night with Spence pretty often. I've narrowly sidestepped his attempts to kiss me. He's a real flirt, so i thought fun-flirting back would be safe. not saffffe...
sorry, i seem to be awfully incoherent.

Character profiles:

Adam: 19, Major: Linguistics

Build: Brown hair. On the short side, (but as i may have mentioned, ANYone is taller than me) pretty eyes..
Type: apparently me?
Rating: an even 6 .. he kind of looks like leo decap
Personality: misogynistic and egotistical. annoyingly persistent, as it turns out. cleverly funny if you are in the right mood.

Cody: 21, Major: Pre-Med
Build: Blond, green eyes. Very tall, extremely expressive face. cute smile. Alex Skarsgard to a T
Type: tall beautiful girls. or short beautiful girls. Hispanic/asian/black/white/purple girls. Every girl.
Rating: 7.1
Personality: quite quirky, good music taste, knows just enough about tons of things to have a conversation about anything. Kind of shy.

So, obviously i am hopelessly semi-infatuated with Cody, insomuch that i can hardly see any man besides him.

Kelley and Travis have broken up, a fact that neither of them seem to have acknowledged. Sharon has been in her room for all of this.