Today I listened to one: "Higher and Higher" (Jackie Wilson). It's different from the usual punk and such Cody gives me, but I like it. I would have to say my favorites from these recent imports are: "T.H.E.H.I.V.E.S" (The Hives) "Amy's song" (Switchfoot) "Point/Counterpoint" (Streetlight Manifesto) and all of the Suburban Legends.
I swear I am in love with the suburban legends....... and Specials. I would marry ska.
The past two days I have eaten nothing containing nutritional value. I mean it. absolutely nothing. My mom sent me easter candy, and Cherene bought me those powder hostess donuts yesterday.
I think I am over-exercising my farcical college freedom. I know better, I know what good nutrition calls for. so it's a bit like an up-yours to... I don't even know. I feel self-empowered, and I will continue to feel so until I attempt to go on a run. Which I shall put off, I think. Mom would be so ashamed of me. Dad would be proud of the Kichi Metabolism working its magic. Swear, haven't gained a pound in the past 8 months. My Katchy seesters are JEALOUS!!!
I miss my nephews(and niece). "Back to California" (sugarcult) yes, yes, just a month until home. I don't know if I am excited or not. Christmas break started to get old, fast, and that was a mere 2 weeks.
4 months is a completely different story. Especially since I have to find a creative way to make 4000 dollars in that time frame.
Kelley pretends the end of the semester won't come. Provo feels like the best home I've had in a while, and I don't know how I feel about losing the majority of my friends. At the moment, however, I am happy, for what is the point of being depressed about next year right now? There will be plenty of time for that... next year!
"Hate to say I told you so" (the hives) I passed my chem 107 exam and my bio midterm this week. I seem to be incapable of earning an A in anything other than book of mormon. Which, at least, means I'm not failing church... "Doesn't remind me" (audioslave) ..[sorry, i have iTunes on shuffle] Every day, it feels like déjà vu . Constant 'i swear i've done this before' moments...especially now that it's getting warm again.
"But not Tonight" (depeche mode) I am extremely excited to see MUSE. I can't contain it sometimes. Today, my ASL professor cancelled class for April 5. It's like the whole universe is chipping in to my greatest dream being fulfilled. I just want to do 12000 sit-ups and dance to 80's music.
Today I went tutoring and I was assigned to this girl learning fractions. I felt like a hopeless failure, mostly because this 3rd/4th grader had trouble subtracting 4 from 2. How do you teach Lowest Common Denominators to a girl who can't multiply? Or divide a box into 4 equal sections? I didn't want to be condescending. "I just can't get enough" (depeche mode) Or make her feel stupid, but she's just one of those kids who are making it through the system without learning anything. I wanted to spend days catching her up to the kids younger than her who can do this stuff no sweat. I felt terrible. Everyone else was done tutoring their kids and it was past 8pm. I left her up to another lady and I left. I don't know if I'll go back, I don't feel like I can really help kids learn. I'd be a real crap teacher.
"Photograph" (weezer) i want it. can i have it? are girls allowed to chase a guy and convince him that he's into her? no!! no! no? no...? I have messed up all past "relationships" I have ever "had" .. yikes, i mean REALLY messed up. Always completely my fault. "healthy body" (operation ivy) Is it fair to willfully subject a man to my ugliness? The past two times I can at least partly say the boys deserved it. One should not pursue a cold-hearted ***** like yours truly. I do feel bad. I probably always will feel bad about what happened between me and them. But to the matter at hand, would things work out better if I had some sort of say in who was interested in me? "interlude" (attack! attack!) if so, how does a girl go about that? all the on-line advice says not to try it. hahahahahha. disheartening.
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