I turn nineteen in just under a week. I am determined that upon that day, I will suddenly lose all feelings I ever had for that amazing guy. Somehow, it will happen, and I will live out the rest of the summer daydreaming about some faceless RM that I am certain to meet the MOMENT I arrive at my new apartment. And this new RM will be even cuter and even more chivalrous and will (is it possible?) like ska MORE and and YEAH. so there!
"I'm gonna find another you" (John Mayer)
okay. unhealthy goal. I will daydream about Brad Jackson instead, who is only five months younger than I, and in a two-andahalf years, he will be the nicest hot guy in the world and he'll totally propose to me the second he gets back.
um well I'm gonna go to Washington on August 17 to be with Kelley!!! and we're gonna ROADTRIP back to Provo a week later! woo!! The only problem is the whole Adam is her next door neighbor thing. I want to apologise to him...but... I don't know what to say. I want him to somehow know that I didn't mean for all that crap to happen. Everything just... happened ..
goin' crazy with my thoughts. I have to take out another student loan and it sucks. I can see this being the reason why so many girls actually get married so quickly. As much as I joke around, I really don't want to get married yet! IM NOT EVEN THROUGH MY TEENAGE YEARS! yeesh. I know too many girls who are getting married way too young.
(cries)
scary daysss
No comments:
Post a Comment